TIMING IS EVERYTHING?

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TIMING IS EVERYTHING

Privati-zing

Of late I have noticed alot of blogs are going on a private mode. Most have set login/password for invited guess only.

There a few blogs which i frequent. Mainly just to read about it and nothing more....

Its fun sometimes to read about what people go through daily esp those who live overseas. Their lives seems so much fuller than ours. Or is it just that they are good at portraying that? And it all but an illusion?

couple of years back, i used to read this blog of an american in china and before that he was in korean. His blog always seems so happy and fun.. talking about his life and the interesting things.

Then one day, my friend told me that that guy committed suicide. KABOOM just like that.

Makesyou wonder eh.. maybe these people are just great writers , great illusionist.

Either way, I don't give two hoots, i like readin them. As long as they make me think there is hope out there.

maybe one day my dream will be achieved before i reach six feet under.

Making a change

I was having this conversation with my colleague via our company's internal chat program.

She always seem so happy and chirpy and not bothered by work. I guess one other reason is that she doesn't need to deal with the politics around coz she is not a permanent staff. Also recently she has embarked on the MLM boat.

One thing that i should take out of the conversation was she said she never let work effect her. Work is just work and that about it. and if you only have work then your focus would be more so need to have something outside work to focus your energy on.

Very true. Gonna take that with me. Hopefully 2008 will be GREAT YEAR!

Spent 2.5 hours on the road

Today was such a horrendous Monday.

Left my home at 6.40am...
First section of the journey, Jam right after the first toll. Then moving again
Then after the second toll, jam... standstill................................

Was stuck for more than 1.5 hours........................... Then saw the stewpid lorry carrying sand overturn.. damn it.

Body aching. Knee aching... what a blue monday.

SMS my colleague but that bugger didn't tell me boss.. so i had to go in and inform her myself after i arrive . If not she would think i no respect her mah.

Susah lah jadi manusia.

Zippo

Thank You to FY who provided info on where to buy Zippo.

got it yesterday. Was abit curious why would a watch shop sell zippo. Now i know the answer. Coz they do sell lighters and i saw at the lighter stand it had the word zippo on it.

:)

Zoom

Today is a public holiday here. As usual, I want to sleep in. Of late, I have been feeling very tired most of the time. I am always an earlier riser but as time goes by, I tend to sleep in later and later.

Today i woke up around 7.30am. Then by 8am, I was checking on somethings. I have made a mental note of what to do for the day. The major plan was to do cleaning.

My place isn't big but its a real chore to clean :P. I decided to start with my closet. I have clothes oozing out the brims. So its high time some spring cleaning is done. I manage to get one bag full of clothes I would like to give away. and another to discard. But you know , I have a problem, when i usually give the bag to my mom to give the clothes away. She will always say this one still can be worn, that one still looks ok. I always tell her.. leave it be. Coz if i keep listening to her and keeping everything, the spring cleaning will never be successful.

Around 9.30am, I decided to go buy some groceries. I hardly ever go to Tesco. I am more of Jusco or Carre Four person. Anyways.. i decided to head to Tesco as I have a need to visit the clobber at the curve. I haven't tried the clobber before but the way it was advert like its cheaper compared to other places. Cheap and good job - advert says. Do i trust? Guess the only way to know is to try it out. Cost me RM16 to reheel one pair of shoes. Cheap ah? I forgot the last time I did in Mid-V how much did it cost me? Anyways.. will take note next time.

Alot of ppl at Tesco wor. Gile lah. 10am is like.. packed parking also susah nak dapat. But i managed to find one and then bought only few things. I am very scared to go out coz it equals to spending money.

One thing that i was looking for but didn't manage to find was the Zippo (the lighter refiller). I need that to clean my white bag - not leather lah. Crap lah. Where to buy???? Zippo was recommended by thelady who sold me the bag.

If you know where to buy, drop me note k.

Day is almost over. Sad lah...........

Hero*es Season Dua

One word - awesome!!!!!

don't miss it.....

I am only half way thru.....................

A Celebration - Really?

As today is the last day of the year 2007, the media - radio, tv, newspapers, mags are all blasting with ads on celebration blablablabla.

Is there really anything to celebrate? Its been years since I last set foot out to a party or just to hang out to usher in the new year. Couple of reasons to that.

Firstly, I hate the human traffic not to mention the actual vehicle traffic on the roads. And the most horrendous of all, the parking congestion. Even if you managed to find a parking spot - not necessarily a good one, you may still be forced to fork out much more than you would normally do.

secondly, the age is catching up to me.

This year I am plagued with anxiety. At the stroke of midnight, I will now be categorized under the late something category. Thats one of the reason I am not so not looking forward to the new year. Neither am I looking forward to be the spinster :(

As for resolutions!!! I have plenty, but I have long given up writing up any, as its hardly ever fulfilled. hehee.

Many things had happened in this month of december, have been wanting to blog about it a thousand times, but just the lazy bone caught up with me. Will see what happens. I will heading back to work on 2nd Jan.. dang man, how time flies. Hardly did anything and in a blink of an eye, its over over *sob*sob*

But not wanting to be a cynic, I shall wish everyone a Happy New year!!!!

Evan Almighty

As we all know this movie will never come to our shores due to the reason, that certain people think that the people of this country is easily swayed.

Anyways.. i just wanted to say that this movie is a great one. Go watch it if you have a chance.

It says a lot of things....

But one thing that stuck with me is
How to do you change the world?
one Act of Random Kindness at a time. ARK.

Yeah.. man...............

Weak....

I know I haven't been blogging since bfore the 20th of December. I wanted to but the lazy bone in me just forbade me to do it. hehehe.

Anyways... as the title says, I have been weak. Been purging since this morning at 7am and by 12pm, I would have already visited the good old little john 10 times!!!!

When it started, i took some chinese tablets - poh chai yuin. Not sure if you know what it is. Then even after 2 friggin hours i was still purging. What to do!!! there is no lomotil in sight in the fridge. Called my sista who is away fixing her car... ahh she stole it and put it at her house when she had the bug couple of days ago. Thank goodness she lives like 2 doors away. got the medication, took it.. and mama mia.. still visitng the little john leh................

Now another different bug attacked... the puking bug. I could feel the cram in my tummy. The pain ws more like gastric pain rather than anything else. :~~~~~

I decided to still eat , at least a bit - even if its a tiny bit. i took bread. like maybe quarter cup of milo without milk and went to snooze. Holly shit.. couldn't coz stomach was uneasy. my brother kept asking me whether i wanted to go see the DR. I said maybe wait it out for awhile and after that.. everything just subsided. Thank You Lord... at this time i am typing this, i feel better....

But what a waste of my 1 day leave. hehehe.

not realy hor, coz i am have wasted my 1 week at home doing nothing...... nyek nyek!!!!

BUT BUT i had plans today, to clean up my room. but i guess someone decided getting sick was the priority.

p/s my dad asked the maid to cook coz my mom has been away since sunday. I think it must be something not clean or stale. I woke up around 3.30pm and my bro stated that he also had the virus. SCARY... i want my mommy back!!!!

Finally

Thank God. Finally the issue is resolved but not without numerous calls to TM. And kept following up.

Little by little things start unearth. What surprised me was i upgraded to 1mbps in sept and after a week since i logged the ticket, the Call Center person told me that the technician has asked me to upgrade my package to 1mbps to get a higher speed. I was appalled. Excuse me, i am already using that package. hence my ticket was to complain about the inability to get that speed that i paid for or rather am paying for. Crazy right.

Anyways... finally got fixed today afternoon. Thank God. As of yesterday I started to pray different for this issue. Before that i kept asking Lord to please let the issue be resolved. The report is now already in its 8th day. Then I decided to ask God to guide the person who is solving my issue. May God grant him the wisdom to see whats wrong and fix it.

Glad its finally resolved but I do pray it stays this way.

Today is also my last day of work for the year!!! yahooooooooooooo

Today my mood was exceptionally bright and chirpy.

Short Changed

I feel so cheated.
Sometime last Aug, i upgraded from 512K broadband line to 1mbps line.

Guess what??? I am getting MODEM speed seriously. this is the result frm the provider's speedometer at their site.

for the past week, I have been calling them every friggin day and they never seem to be doing anything.

I feel really ripped off. I can understand that you are not able to reach the ful capacity of 1mbps but having to settle for modem speed is extremely bad!!!!!!!!

You Look Tired

Thats whats 2 different people I met this week told me.

Hmmm.. don't know whats wrong with me but I am darn tired all the time.

Something wrong with me?

Kids these days

Sigh...
what is becoming of the world today and what more the kids today.

Every year end, the co, will have this community proj event where they invite homes to come and then have the children make their 3 top wishes. The event then will be held at some hotel where kids meet their sponsors.

This year would be my first year participating in this event. By the time, i got to the board, all were left were bigger kids and I decided to sponsor a kid who is 15 years of age.

Pretty simple 3 wishes.
1) jeans + tshirt
2) sport shoes + socks
3) basketball.

We were given a budget and if it exceeds that we can replace that with another gift. We are encouraged not to spend more than RM300.

Anyways, I went shopping and bought what i thought was nice and reasonable priced.

oh boy! i wasn't prepared for the shock i got when i gave the kid the gift at the end of the event.
He asked me whether i bought him either quick silver, billabong, nike tshirt or what? I was like... open n u will know. He didn't want to and I mean Thank Goodness for that lah. If not he will know that did not buy in branded stuff but stuff that was nice and affordable. What are becoming of kids these days.

These are orphans, suppose to be poor?? i don't think so no more. These days. these ppl are too materalistic.

shocked what is becoming of the kids.

Next year if i were to sponsor, i want to sponsor younger kids.

Oh might i add, he was a rude kid, more like a delinquent type. Rude , rushed for food. Took alot of food, and couldn' finish.. and kept taking... totally ill mannered. I talked to some people after the event and was told that some of the other kids from that home were equally ill mannered. So thats it.. next year byebye no more sponsoring kids from these homes.

When and IF i become a parent, i will teach my kids to be thankful to have a roof over their heads, a shirt on their back. I want them to appreciate what they have. And look at things beautiful not bcoz of the price or brand... but for the thing is beautiful in itself regardless of brand or $$$ tag.

Breakdown

No NOT me....

Today out of a suddenly at work, i heard sobbing sounds behind me, I turn back to see my cubicle neighbour balling out. I didn't dare go to him and ask.. whats wrong. He sob sob sob.. then he stopped. I then msg him and asked are you ok?

he said he is emo. Just yesterday he told me that he has been diagnosed with chronic depression. When I asked the dr diagnosed you? he said no i told the DR that. On Monday he was on Medical.

I have known him for 3 years, starting off in the same team, he joined like 2 months before me. In year 2006, we had a restructure. Our team was disolved and myself and him was pulled together with my super to our current team. Well, what i believe is that our super pulled u to be with her.

For the past 2 years, life hsn't been easy. Let me tell you why. Coz this is not what both our skills are. Eventho he did have abit of skills in this area, his passion is not this. he likes development work. so being in infra side is just not his forte. He like myself have been asking for a movement for 1 year now and the answer given to the both of us are the same. Which is big flat no.

Today he just couldn't contain it any longer and broke down. Also least to say that my super has been hounding him down... kind of pitiful. But I guess his only way out is to leave if he can't stand it anymore coz staying on isn't gonna change anything.

I hope i don't get to that stage too. I feel what he feels coz you're never good enough.. for that someone... who has authority over you. Its sad sad sad.

Bangkok

As you would have guessed that I went on a vacation over the Deepavali long weekend. I actually had to take one day off but its all worth it. The trip at least and the shopping spree that i did. But i beg to differ about the company though. :P

Let's start from the beginning. During the MATA fair that just passed, I went to get the ground package for the tour. It was also my very first experience of MATA fair. :) Yeah yeah i know.

Anyways, booked the air asia flight and the package which included hotel and hotel transfer.

The hotel is pretty old hence the bed i have to caution, had bed bugs which I had to suffer the bites and till now still have the red scars to show. Hope it will heal soon.

Shopping was excellent but of course when one says one is going to bkk for shopping, its not about the brand or the quality stuff. But i like it... coz i don't care as long as its nice and cheap... :)

Here goes some of the wares which i bought. Some i have already given to the rightful receipients.




Black with White Stripe blouse - bought for RM17 = 170 baht.
Bought at The Platinum Fashion Mall.





















Addidas baggie = RM24 = 240 Baht
Bought at Chatuchak weekend market










RM20 each if buy in wholesale (3 and above) Thats the term used wholesale means 3 or more. I bought the white pattern in peach also. :) Very worth it ya.... RM20 ONLY!!!!












Puff Sleeves white blouse = RM23 = 230 baht.
Bought at Chatuchak Weekend Market. The lady didn't want to reduce the price.. :( just a tiny bit.... But ok lah.

















Shorts - forgot the price, i think it was RM15 or was it RM13?











Tshirts

The light color was purchased for RM19 each when purchased 3 or more. I bought 3 but the grey one has been worn so not in the picture.

The polo one.. is about RM25 - not cheap lah this one but cheaper than the real thing loh.







I want to make another trip there!!!!! maybe next year. But with someone who don't mind walking and taking the sky train rather than wanting to take taxi all the time.

Updates

I haven't been blogging much.
Its much due to laziness and just not wanting to do anything....
Sleeping seems to be like the best remedy.
Scrabulous seems to be the next best remedy. hehee

Brief update
1) Went for vacation over the Deepavali holidays. Came back with severe bed bugs bites. (never ever gonna stay in that stupid hotel again, eventho the location was fab for shopping).
2) made a decision yesterday - will reveal more once I have given it a through thought and an action plan.
3) Search for potential new J has started. hopefully with God's grace something will happen.

Another Sunday ? Dissipating Hope?

As friends of mine know, every sunday I am an early riser. I am up before the sun is up to be in church. Yes.... Its been going on for years.

And also for years there is chap who has been going to church i believe for as long as I have. But long ago, my family used to seat at the front pews. Like the first few 5 or so. But since the new priest came along couple of years back, we have had to move back to the second sections of the pew. Coz this priest uses alot of incense throughout mass and my nose can't take it. I feel suffocated.

So since the last few years, I finally began to notice this chap. I believe he is eurasian. So i was hoping that one day I would have a chance to cross path. Years went by, prayers went unheard. Then for the last 6 months I haven't seen him in church anymore. Until today.

During his absence of the 6 months, his sister has given birth. and today there is baptism for babies. Maybe thats why he came. He did came to mass but alas! with a beautiful chinese girl in tow :)

I don't know this person but only seen from afar but yet I have this tinge of disappointment in my heart. Maybe its more of a feeling of dissipated hope.

Its not easy anticipating the next birthday which is very soon on the way. Not very easy to accept the fact that one is turning older and yet nothing in sight. Years of prayers that doesn't seemed answered. Maybe like they say, every prayer is answered and maybe the answer is a No.

How does one as a Christian , decides to do? Go on praying? give you praying? Still hold hope that God hasn't forsaken one?

Its easy for some ppl of other faith judging Christians. But tell you it isn't easy being a Christian. We have struggles too more so when you are closer to God. If you noticed, alot of people always have this judgemental way of approaching Christian. It aint' an easy journey esp this Spiritual journey. But without hope, is one's life worth living.

Lately

I gone for a holiday at all this year. It has been work work work. Due to my project. When my project ended in Oct, I wanted to take a break. During MATA fair, my friend and I went to buy those ground packages. Planned for a long awaited trip to BKK.

Then... bad news had to prod along. My TL, has been in this other proj for while since last year. He travelled to Canada and USA for this proj. Suddenly when its about to come to implementation time, he is passing the bug to someone else. Guess who is the lucky soul - ME!!!!
And the worse thing is, they have a workshop in US next month. But i can't go!!!! WHY? coz it clashes with my vacation.

Yeah some might say just cancel your trip. But have you to understand, its just no me involved in this vacation. My friend will be damn pissed. Coz she was looking forward to this also. So I stand firm in going for my vacation regardless. Sometimes when you give in too much to the co, it becomes more detrimental to you rather than otherwise.

So its my luck. don't get to go but have to work on the project. When will my luck get better.
anyways.. my visa has expired!!! hehehe so if i get to go...(if they change the dates!!!, pray!!!and hope they do), then I can get new visa on the expense of the co.. MUAHAHAHHAHAA

Lets see how it goes.

Oh yeah.. I have spent my Award money!!!! :P The secretary was complaining how I was the last one still who has not submitted it for claim. Well next is my dead line.. doing it first thing in the morning. :P (will take photos of the staff.... and post it)

P/S On another topic, I have been trying real hard to stay positive. Glad to say it has brought some good feeling within me. Eventho' i still go through bouts of sadness once a while.

Things that you said you would but never gotten to do it...

You know what i meann rite? Year after year that new year resolution, that month resolution, etc etc. hehehe.

But u end up not doing nothing about it.

Aiii. sad to say I have some task pending. I know i should do it more regularly but somehow the lazy bone got better of me.

I need to lose weight. And I did embark on that. Then half way off, it sizzled off.. hehehe....
I need to start it again. I met up with ringgit yesterday, and he commented i put on weight. :(

Aiyoooo.. dunno what to do.
Its the age believe me. i don't eat much... but yet.. its boom boom up the scale.

List of things i should get going on
1) Lose weight - ideal would be 50KG
2) repaint the apt.
3) save money to furnish the other room with bed and a cupboard.
4) GET ME A HUSBAND!!!! :P

Ok better not have too many!!!!